Question & Answer With "Believing Gentile" - Torah & The Internet
A Simple Jew asks:
It is obvious that the internet is a tremendously powerful medium to spread Torah to the four corners of the earth. How has the dissemination of Torah teachings via the internet helped you as a Bas Noach who accesses these teachings via a computer in South East Asia?
"Believing Gentile" responds:
Before the Internet came, I had never heard of the words, "Noahide" or "seven laws". Without the Internet I would not have "unlearned" idolatry and learned about G-d.
I was brought up as a Christian and had my basic education in a convent school. The system was good, discipline stringent, school uniforms below the knee, and other such things. But there were statues everywhere, and we got into the habit of kissing them, touching the holy water, and praying so earnestly to the statues, that now, after studying the Noahide laws, I am totally aghast at my ignorance of the past. I was scared of the devil spearing me when I did a sin, I thought all was hopeless, I thought of the original sin we are born with and so much more.
My Torah tutor had a wonderful way of starting my studies. He told me to go out and ask all the questions that I had about Christianity. I did an online correspondence course on the New Testament with the World Wide Church of God in Pasadena and studied with the Seventh Day Adventist church. I hopped from denomination to denomination seeking the truth.
My Torah tutor on the Internet then disproved every Christian teaching with loads of back up. We spent almost a year unlearning my Christian scriptures. He emptied me of my years of idolatry, and started teaching me from the basics. He made me into a vacuum and started teaching me the holy Tanach.
Every question I asked, he answered - from King David and Bathsheba to Judah and Tamar. And, from these accounts to the reason King Jepthah had to sacrifice his daughter, knowing G-d does not allow human sacrifices. I never stopped asking questions. I remember that we went over King David and Bathsheba for over a year until I was satisfied.
Today my two sons and I might be the only Noahides around here. My husband continues to be an observant Hindu.
When I pray I know G-d hears, that he is not in Heaven looking down from a far off place, but is everywhere. The holy Baal Shem Tov wrote that we can *see* G-d, in His creations, the birds, nature, everywhere. When we fall, He is there to help us up again no matter how many times we fall. There is never a time barrier to teshuvah.
Today, because of the Internet the light of the Torah is reaching to many, even in the darkest corners of the world , and for the first time, I know of the Light to all nations.
If I did not have the Internet there is no way I could have studied what I have studied or known what I do now. G-d has blessed me with many teachers and friends, and given me an understanding at my level, to strengthen my faith enough , prayerfully, not to slip back to my idolatrous past. I am very attached to the Chassidic teachings of the Baal Shem Tov, Chabad, Breslov, and other. I respect and honor all the holy sages. One of my favorite prayers which I try to say often and strengthen myself is that of Reb Nosson of Breslov: Protect me from all extraneous fears, so that I will not be afraid of anything or anyone in the world..... Let me only fear You at all times.