A Question For You From Lev Shalem - Finding Another Rebbe
Received via e-mail from Lev Shalem:
Please note that my question is not regarding finding someone to ask questions on halachic issues, I have that area covered. This is issue is strictly neshama related.
After spending a year and a half studying in a yeshiva in Israel, growing a tremendous amount, learning more than I could have ever imagined, I owe much of my spiritual success to my Rebbe who was my guide throughout my entire journey. My relationship with my Rebbe goes very deep. He is a huge "anav" who always turns down kibudim, but accepted the role as mesader kiddushim at my wedding. He is a man who although very difficult to keep in touch with, I felt a special connection to him.
Over the years however, it has gotten increasingly difficult to keep in touch. As we get older, life gets more and more difficult, and the need for a Rebbe, I believe, becomes all the more necessary. Life is a huge challenge, and I believe it should be that way, but no one should have to go through it alone. We need the guidance of our elders, of our mentors and of our Rebbeim.
I guess what I am trying to determine is, I know that my Rebbe and I will always have a special relationship, but at this point, I'm not sure it's enough. I am not sure that the amount we speak and the amount of availability he can give me is enough.
In a strange way, I don't think I will ever find another Rebbe that I can connect to like this. But all things being considered, I do need someone there for me. Someone who truly has my best interest at heart. Who knows me and who understands me.
I am just unsure if I should tough it out, or seek a new Rebbe? I am not sure I even know how to go about finding a Rebbe?